Sometimes you’ve heard a song a hundred times and then suddenly a message in that song jumps out at you. They’ve always been there, those words in that song, but this time they pierce your soul, heal a wound, make you feel covered in God’s love.
That happened to me yesterday with the song from Casting Crowns entitled “Wedding Day.” Events beginning in my childhood have caused a part of me to always feel like I am on the outside, not quite fitting in, not good enough, insecure. I wish I could tell you that I have overcome all those childhood feelings, but when I least expect it they rise to the surface.
I think a lot of it has to do with Satan knowing what buttons to push and when the most vulnerable time is to push them, opening up old wounds still present, all raw and painful despite the passing of decades. When that happens, our focus often becomes the pain of the wound instead of the presence of God’s healing power over that wound. Our effectiveness for God is greatly affected.
A recent wound has left me dealing with a pain I can’t seem to get relief from no matter how often I give it to God, no matter how often I beg Him to take it away from me. Having analyzed this inability for relief from every angle, I think God gave me the answer in the song mentioned above just yesterday.
Though it is difficult for me to do, God is asking me to look at myself through his eyes and not the eyes of others. Flaws and all He sees me beautiful and worthy and accepted and useful even when the world does not. He says I am beautiful, not lacking in anything, and that is what I long to feel about myself in Him. I want how He sees me to be the only thing that matters to my heart. Below are the words to the chorus that hit home with me and I will include the song at the end of the post.
When someone dries your tears
When someone wins your heart
And says your beautiful
When you don’t know you are
And all you’ve longed to see
Is written on his face
When love has come and finally set you free
On that wedding day
On that wedding day
Know today that you are beautiful, accepted, loved and cherished in God’s sight no matter what the world says about you. His opinion is all that matters. Then ask Him to make that truth be a reality that you hang onto when Satan throws his best at you. Stay in God’s word and gain strength through His promises. We can do this. God has us by the hand to walk us through. Don’t let go and keep your eyes on Him! To God Be the Glory!