Luke 10:38-42 New International Version (NIV)

At the Home of Martha and Mary
38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!” 41″Martha, Martha, the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed–or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”

I am a hardcore Martha. I’m claiming it! As the scripture above informs, this is not a good thing. Of late, God has been trying to help me address this in subtle ways. Today the message was not so subtle. A prophecy update I clicked on in YouTube from J. D. Farag turned out to be his Sunday sermon. By the time I realized this, God had already gotten my attention.

Let me cut to the chase. Because I have a hard time quieting my heart and soul, I am missing the “still small voice” that can only be heard when I choose to “be still and know.” In the quiet this afternoon as I chose to take on the posture of Mary, God revealed some gaping wounds in my life which have led to unforgiveness. Unforgiveness leads to bitterness, which leads to a hardened heart, which nurses pride, all of which affect my relationship with my Heavenly Father and bog down my soul–not to mention the crack in the door left for Satan to sneak in and stir the pot.

Whew! What blessings am I blocking in my life carrying unforgiveness in my heart? Well, God wasted no time helping me uncover the places I had hidden my hurt and pain which led to unforgiveness. Had I not made a concerted effort to sit still in His presence, these revelations would never have happened. I would be carrying the weight of unconfessed sin.

I believe God loves us so much, that He will place us in situations where we have not only the awareness of but the opportunity for stillness at His feet. This “Martha” was aware of this need and God’s leading today because I am no longer able to work. I have Multiple Sclerosis which has become more symptomatic over the last couple of years. God has used even this for my good, providing me with the time and quiet for this revelation today.

When God loves you enough to put you in a place of surrender to clear your head and your heart, just surrender. He has a plan. As I confessed my unforgiveness and sought God’s healing grace for those gaping holes of hurt, He urged me to write this post. It is my hope He uses it to speak to someone who can benefit from what I am learning.

As a very new, very ADHA “Mary,” I want to encourage you to find the time to sit still in the presence of God and listen for how else do we know His will for our lives? How long do you sit? Until He speaks. It will be worth it, I promise. It’s OK if you so squirm a little bit. Just carve out the time away from social media, TV, the news, the children and do it. Take captive those random thoughts and listen closely. There is blessing to be had when you hear His still, small voice and choose what is better that can not be taken away from you. May Jesus bring new wine out of you. To God Be the Glory!